It's Only The Beginning

of what I want to feel forever...

We finally turned in our bulging file folder of paperwork. We picked up the forms on Halloween (I told the Social Worker we don't normally all dress in black, just me) so let's see...it took us about two months just to get our paperwork filled out. We may be subconsciously stalling for time, for better days when Smooshie isn't two and a half. At any rate, we've lept over the first hurdle in style and now we wait.

It's like waiting to hear that the blood test is positive only we aren't having a baby, but a child.

Sometimes I can't sleep because I am thinking about how strange it will be to have a child living with us without her parents and who is already potty-trained, sleeping through the night, dressing herself and probably capable of making not only her own PB&J sandwich but a couple for our boys, too.

It's weird.

Exciting.

Suspenseful.

Nerve-wracking.

And I have heartburn.

Presto Change-o!

I called Leah with LFS Friday, and set up a home visit for this Friday evening, but after thinking it over this weekend I have changed my mind once again and decided I would rather go with Ariel Clinical Services.

I think they are a smaller agency, with a lot less overhead, and they just have a vibe that we like. The agency reminds me a lot of the small non-profit I worked for right out of college, Community Living, Inc.

Besides we already have all of our Ariel forms filled out- we just need to get our fingerprint cards done and find a doctor who can see the whole family in one visit. I am hoping we can get an appointment with a doctor at a family practice right down the street. I have agreed to arrange the doctor's appointment and Mike will make an appointment for getting our fingerprints.

Also, if I didn't already mention this: LFS is "absorbing another agency" which sounds cannibalistic but apparently happens a lot with CPA's and seems to cause chaos.

We asked our oldest son how would he like having an older sister, and he said, "I would like her if she combs her hair, listens, brushes her teeth and plays with me."

We'll see what we can do!

On the couch

I'm not calling LFS today because I have finally succumbed to this cold and am on the couch. The boys are playing really well together and it's time like this when I question why we want to add a third child to our family. Why is it so important for me to have a daughter? And is it a sexist need?

Lutheran Family Services is stalking us!

I had called them to get some information on their foster program (that was never sent). I played phone tag with one woman and now another woman called me today! I am not Lutheran, and maybe it doesn't matter, but I tend to go with secular organizations. Although my first contact with the foster community here- a woman I spoke with at McDonald's of all places, while we were living in the hotel in Greenwood Village- recommended LFS. Of course, she was Lutheran! But I still think I may call her. She gave me her number on a napkin and said, "I know what it's like to move to a place where you don't know anyone so feel free to call me about anything."

NoBloPoSun

I didn't blog at all on Sunday, not because it was the Sabbath, but because I was up until 3 a.m. taking photos of new items for our business website and of various things that I am now auctioning on eBay, and my sons have a cold which they are sharing nicely, and I just took the day off and vegged out and let the house get really messy. I watched Rugrats Go Wild with the boys and loved every minute of it. I vowed to do that every Sunday from.now.on.

Nonetheless, since I didn't blog yesterday, I will share a quote from the day: "You are not allowed to take doors apart, Mister!" Mike said that to one of our sons. They both seem to have minds like engineers, and like to take things apart but can't always get them back together.

Why do we want more kids? you may be asking. Because rules were made to be broken, that's why. "There's room for one more..." ~MATISYAHU

Mike finished his "SAFE" Questionnaire, so now we just have to find a doctor to see the whole fam, get fingerprinted, and wait for our criminal background checks to be performed. For me, it will be like sort of like waiting to see if a pregnancy takes, but without the cramps real or imagined.